SURPRISE!!!!!!

OK, as most of you know, Tony and I have a sweet baby boy named Camden. Most of you may not realize that I didn't quite know I was pregnant until I was about 6 months along. I know you're thinking i'm crazy and saying "how in the world did you NOT know!?" Well...i'll tell you.
You see, i've never been, ahem, "regular". EVER. I was always skipping months here and there from when I first blossomed into a young lady ;) . I hardly ever had 12 periods a year...it was mostly about 6 or so. If you're a guy and you're reading this, I know you're thinking "TMI, Kim!" but it's true and it helps me stress the point that I had no idea that I was pregnant, OK!? And no, I never went to "THE" dr. I was terrified of THAT Dr and didn't really want them alllll up in my business so I just basically cast the whole situation aside (I know, not smart...but hey!) Anyways! In 2007 I had my last cycle in December and did not have another one until July of 2008 and was regular and had my last one again in December of 2008. I figured, hey this is just my "cycle" and I rolled with it. I wasn't complaining....I LOVED not having one haha!

Well, at the very end of MAY I noticed I had gained a little weight. And by little, probably 5lbs but on someone of my stature it looks like 15! I assumed I was gaining weight because I have an office job and I basically sit on my tooshy all day and I was eating out a lot. So, I quit eating fast food and started eating "healthy" and the pounds just wouldn't go away. Then I was laying in bed one night sometime during the first part of June and I felt a quiver in my belly and I thought "HMMMMM! THAT WAS DEFINITELY *NOT* RIGHT". So I told Tony, we took a test and Hellooooooooo baby Camden (of course, we didn't know HE was a "he" just yet!).

Yup. I'm not going to lie....I was scared TO DEATH to tell my parents. But then I was like...you know what, I'm 23...I'm not a 16 year old kid still in high school-I'm an adult, I have a career....What do I have to be so scared of? I know they'll disapprove at first but they'll come around. It was RIGHT. IT WAS PERFECT. IT WAS A BLESSING. A blessing to me because with having a "wacky" period for so long I figured my ovaries were fried and I would never be able to have children. An abortion was never ever ever ever EVER an option for me. I could never do that...I, personally, don't have the audacity to shoot down God's plan for ME. And I in no way am shooting down anyone that has ever had an abortion because of certain health circumstances, rape...etc because I know that's a tough call to make. Just had to make that clear before I get some UGLY responses from people :) That was just never in my "playbook".

Anyways, after the shock of the situation, my parents became excited after we decided that we were going to get married and raise this child right. Once again, I'm not saying go out and get married JUST because a child is involved. We had already discussed the thought of marriage long before we knew about little Camden. We knew that was the path we were going to take, eventually. "Our" plan didn't quite work out how we thought it was going to .... but once again, guess who's did. Yup, that's right, God's plan. It all comes down to His timing once again.


It's amazing to watch that plan grow and to have an idea as to what I think is going to happen verses what DOES happen. No, I didn't expect to be married at 23 and have a baby. Do I regret it? ABSOLUTELY NOT! I love every single minute of waking up next to the most amazing man I know and seeing a sweet smile on my baby boys face every morning when I go to get him out of his bed. I could never regret him. To regret something that God created especially just for US would be the most selfish thing I could ever possibly do.

We basically had about 3 months to plan a wedding, prepare for baby, meet my rediculous $5000 insurance deductible. But we did it. With God's grace and mercy, we did it! It was a tad bit stressful those 3 months trying to get everything on track. Obviously my Dr wasn't very happy with me and basically gave me the spill about how I should see "THE" Dr 2 times a year and should have been since I was 18...his nurse freaked and wanted me to get started on prenatal vitamins right away (which I rarely took...) I don't understand prenatal vitamins. Why in the world do we have to take them now but like 50 years ago those weren't available to everyone and people weren't really MADE to take them. Their children turned out just fine. I think it's just another ploy from the Dr's to get you to spend more money...but that's a whole other issue I prefer not to get in to.

Camden Easton Gullo made his debut on September 15, 2009 at 7:49 PM weighing in at 7lbs 1 oz and 18 1/2 inches long. I had to endure a C-section (pelvis was too narrow for a vaginal birth and Camden could never drop), I was mostly out of it until they showed me his sweet face and I immediately perked up and was staring at the most beautiful being I have ever seen in my life. Of course after that, I was in and out of consciousness and definitely "feeling good".



Our lives have forever been changed because of our sweet little surprise. The best gift I could have ever received :)

Planting the seed :)

OK....So this is my first attempt at blogging so go easy on me. First of all, I would like to start out by saying that God has blessed me tremendously over the last couple of years and I wouldn't be where I am today without His direction.

A little background about me....I was in a 'not-so-great' relationship...an almost 5 year long relationship to be exact. I'll admit the first couple of years were great, we had some good times and shared some great memories. The last couple....not so much. It was hard....really hard because that relationship was all I knew and after awhile I lost myself in that relationship. I let him define me, who I was and what I stood for. IT WAS CRAZY! I always told myself I would never let a boyfriend come between me, my family or friends and it happened and I am not proud of it. I was lost....completely LOST.

Well....during the time of that past relationship I had left my job as curriculum director of a private school to move on to a durable medical equipment company for hospice. Let me just tell you, this job was very intimidating at first....so many different pieces of equipment to learn, the lingo, the nurses (some I "thought" were evil...haha) weren't very patient with me at first. Ohh it was pretty awful there for a bit. I literally BAWLED my last day at my other job because I REALLY did not want to leave, I loved that job, MY KIDDOS, and all the people I worked with. Little did I know, that my new job would lead me to the most handsome, caring, "perfect" man of my dreams who later became my husband ;)

So on my first day there, I noticed this cute guy loading up a trailer for the pool company next door. We made eye contact and that was that...or so I thought. It wasn't until a month or two later when our power went out in all of the warehouses on our strip on 155 that I was face to face with "HIM"....Tony. I was in the office alone, simply drinking a red bull and out of nowhere comes a knock on the door and there he was...."THE BOY NEXT DOOR". Well, we talked for a bit...he asked me out on a date but I, of course, turned him down because I was "involved" at the time. Yes...silly me that was involved in a not so happy relationship. Yup, I'm THAT girl but not THAT girl that would cheat on someone either. I call this God planting the seed of His plan for ME.

Well after the office incident, we waved, talked here and there but nothing special. I then noticed that we actually took the same route home every day...me heading to Lindale and him heading to Quitman. I hadn't really thought any more about him "that way" until one day at the Valero gas station in Lindale. I pulled in and I heard this loud blue Chevy pull in right beside me. Then a lady hops out to get the gas. I was busy pumping my gas and didn't realize that she had walked over to talk to me. She said "Hi! I work next door to you at the pool company. The guys didn't think that I would come over here and talk to you so I decided to prove them wrong. They think you are very pretty".....this lady turned out to be Tony's MOM! I was so nervous and probably blushing at the time that all I could mutter was a simple "Thank you" as I discretely tried to figure out if HE was in the truck or not. I couldn't tell because of those DANG tinted windows haha! Well, that statement kind of made me feel special-silly I know but it was a confidence booster I definitely needed, I knew now that he was STILL interested...several months later. I was out having dinner with my friend Brynne and I just started babbling on about this guy from work and I just couldn't quite figure out WHY I couldn't get him out of my head. Brynne and I talked about it for a while and shed some light on my "situation" that I am forever grateful for. If it wasn't for HER support, I'm not sure where I would be at the moment and I THANK GOD for that friendship, that honest, wholesome friendship that I have with Brynne. She helped me reevaluate things that mattered in my life. Those things that USED to define me and I thought "what in the world am I doing with my life?". I call this God watering the seed of his plan.

Well, through the help of the dinosaur "myspace" network, we got each other's phone numbers. It was silly, but it worked for us (we were both pretty shy lol). Anyways, we texted back and forth literally ALL day on a Friday and actually talked on the phone that night....for several hours. We literally connected on a level I never knew was possible. Needless to say, I ended the "relationship" and dove head first into a new one. Some people may call this crazy and think I am the most horrible person on the planet for moving on that quickly. I call this God's timing and blossoming of His plan. His timing allowed me to reevaluate the things that I "thought" were important in my life and get my life back on track with the things that ARE important...which are Him, my family and my friends and I shouldn't let anyone EVER come between me and what's important.

I could not be happier with the many blessings he has showered upon me. I tend to think everything is up to ME instead of giving it all to God and letting things play out WHEN He wants them to.

Next to come.... Our little "SURPRISE" :)